“Christianity is not about where we go when we die, it’s about how we are living today, and the hope we have afterwards.” ~ Pastor Jake
How differently would we live this life if we viewed God’s heart as the destination and not just getting to heaven when we die? Accepting Him as your Lord and Savior is a big, beautiful, amazing thing and I am not trying to take away from that commitment at all. This just challenged me as I look at the way I live my life out. To have a heart that is chasing after God’s heart with no abandon and viewing having a close, intimate relationship with Him as the main thing. To desire knowing His heart above anything. For Him to make himself known to us.
He put us here with each of us having unique purposes separately, but all having the common goal, to praise and glorify Him no matter what. He has given us so many tools to equip us in this life to be bold as we lead a life solely focused on Him. And those tools will help us become kingdom shakers. Activation is key though. God believes in us. Let’s believe in ourselves. Let’s look through the lens that God views us through.
I am going to be real vulnerable for a second. About 3 years ago, I hit a real identity crisis. Now I know that sounds dramatic, but to me, that’s really what it was. I was trying to figure out how I belonged in this world, what I was here for, why I was here. I felt like I had no purpose.
That summer, of 2016, was where I really let the enemy take hold and I didn’t see myself allowing him to let go anytime soon. It seemed easier to just wallow in the anxiety and depression, locking myself in my room for hours on end because even leaving the house seemed like it was just too hard, than standing up as a daughter of the King and allowing Him to fight for me. I did what was easy. I did what was comfortable and that spearheaded everything into an even darker pit. Because when I allowed myself to only do what was comfortable and what seemed easier to me, I was allowing the enemy to have control of my life and not Christ. I was tired. Tired of fighting, just tired…
The summer was slowly coming to an end and I was preparing to move out and start my first year at Grand Valley. I was excited. I fully believed that going to school would solve all my problems. I believed moving out and starting fresh where I didn’t know a whole lot of people would fix the identity crisis I seemed to be going through. It would give me a purpose. For me, it was a way to believe that I was doing something with my life.
However, even with all that happening in my life, I was still pushing God farther and farther away. I threw myself into my studies, soccer, and becoming a person that I no longer recognized. Yes, I got involved with Campus Ministry and that was amazing. I met so many people on fire for Christ that it made me want to be like them. But my heart was still not fully open. I felt unworthy and undeserving of His love and adoration. The passion I saw for Him from those around me was something that I deeply desired, but not something that I thought was attainable for myself. After all, in my head, I had made too many mistakes in my life for God to look at me the same way as He had before. And I slowly realized that the reason my problems didn’t magically go away when I went off to school, was because I wasn’t striving after the heart of Jesus Christ who just wanted me to come home. I fought my way through life, thinking that I could handle it all by myself, but in reality, God was just waiting for me to relinquish that control. He was just waiting for me to realize that I just had to let go and be still. I had to let go and let Him do His work.
Fast forward to just 3 months ago, I had a major mindset switch. I realized how much I just needed to stop fighting and put my full trust in God, no matter how unknown or hard it could be. He needed to have all of me, not just the bits and pieces I allowed Him to have, but ALL of me. My whole heart. He deserved that. And I needed to give it to Him. I began to view my life as not my own. The life we live here is only temporary. In turn, I began to live my life fully for Him and not myself.
I gained a community through Access at our church and that has been a huge blessing. Having a close-knit family of believers that I could surround myself with, truly did make living this life a whole lot easier. 🙂
It made me realize that we are for a reason. He put us here for a reason. We are specifically here to live our lives for Him and be His hands and feet until He calls us home. We are here to be His disciples so that no one walks in this world and doesn’t know the name of Jesus. We are here to be kingdom shakers. And this isn’t saying that it will be easy, because if it was easy everyone would be doing it. But with our Father dying for us, the least we can do is give every bit of ourselves to help further His kingdom. To put Him first in every area of our lives so that others will not see us first, but Jesus Christ.
These are just some extended thoughts that God placed on my heart in regards to the faith that I want to live out. In regards to the Jesus follower that I want to be.
Being bold and fierce in my faith is not something I want to be an option. I want it to be an expectation as I go out and be His hands and feet because that is why we are here. We aren’t here to be comfortable. We aren’t here to be lukewarm. We aren’t here to just be okay with normal. We are here to proclaim His name. To be bold in our households, our workplaces, our life in general. To speak His name with every ounce of our being. We didn’t deserve what He did for us, but He loved us so much that He did it anyway. That is the epitome of love. He bore our burdens for us so that we wouldn’t have to carry that weight. Our lives should be about having His love shine through us to reach others, so that they can feel and sense His love and presence too. We need to be disciples for Him. We need to speak His name without worrying about what others think or the backlash we may receive. His name is too great not to be spoken. He deserves every last piece of us.
So it is time to rise up and make sure that we are doing our part as His followers to make His name known. I fully believe that there is a revival happening and that hearts are being changed and souls are being saved. Because NO ONE can silence the One True King. He will always have the last word. He will always claim victory. We are saved by His incredible grace. I want to get to heaven and have Him look at me and say “ Welcome home my child, well done.” That’s my prayer and plea as I look to make a difference in this earthly realm. My life belongs to my Father and I openly receive all that He has for me, with a humbleness and willingness to do what He asks, casting fear and anxiety aside, because they have no place here. God is victorious and claiming victory over everything that was not supposed to be here.
God loves you so much and will “always run in your direction even when the whole world walks away.” (The God Who Stays: Matthew West)
You can’t do anything that will separate you from His love. Your mistakes, your past, it’s all wiped clean when you choose and fully commitment to the One who bore all those sins so that you wouldn’t have to. He doesn’t want anything keeping you from the life that he so freely wants to give. A life of freedom, a life of hope knowing that God works everything out for the good of those who love Him. God has such big plans for each and every one of you. Plans that far exceed anything that we could have imagined for ourselves. Continue to keep your head up, because it might me stormy now, but it never rains forever. ❤
KINGDOM FOCUSED ~ JESUS FOCUSED ~ KINGDOM SHAKERS
We all have the ability to be kingdom shakers. We all have the ability to change nations as we serve God and not ourselves.